Recounting this to a fellow intuitive coach recently, I explained that for so many years, I hid my intuitive side on the workplace. I didn't want to expose my soft underbelly to the cruel, competitive world. What I had actually done was blocked my intuition. She nodded in understanding and injected, “What you were doing was actually bringing you out of alignment with your soul. You know that now, don't you?” I agreed as I explained to her how it took me a long time to get it back.
Anytime we hide our inner selves, or who we really are, it blocks us. We might think we have it covered, and are protecting ourselves, but it's in-congruent with our true self and keeps us further away from our purpose.
As a snowboard instructor, I learned to teach that when our bodies are out of alignment with the board, itself, or the terrain; any movement we make is out of balance. The result can be exhaustion, lack of efficiency or worse yet – a crash. Through practice, we can learn how to feel if our bodies are in alignment, and more relaxed and efficient with our riding. We will notice if we have our 'Zen' or not, and quickly make adjustments. It takes training and practice as a snowboarder or skier. It's the same in life. We have to know who we are first, and know what our inner self feels like, then we can practice staying in alignment and learning what it is that gets us out of alignment. We have to remind ourselves what makes us calm, secure and happy, – or tired, depressed, and angry.
As I found myself in my job, stressed out and angry, I would long to be somewhere else, waiting for the time when I could go home and 'be myself' again. It never occurred to me that I couldn't change from myself to not being myself like pushing a switch. A big part of being in touch with myself is knowing who I was, and being authentic to myself. I was proud of the role that I played on the job. I didn't realize that I was lying to myself, too. Also, what I didn't know was that if I could vision where I wanted to be and master that feeling within myself, I would eventually get closer to where I wanted to be.
The first step to getting back to ourselves is admitting to ourselves that we're off course. Then we can find out what steps we have to make to get back.
What are things that you do that makes you feel free, blissful, energetic and on top of the world? Find times to incorporate those things into your life, and remove as many of the things that don't light you up. Pull yourself away from those things that drain you. Eventually, you can start making the shift, and keeping yourself in alignment. In turn, more things that light you up will appear in your life.