I met with a positive, upbeat woman a few years older than I. I encouraged her to think positively, that something was just around the corner for her. What I hadn’t realized was that the employment agency was far from the first step in her search. She agreed, “I know money will come when it will, and to trust. I just hope God kicks in before my savings runs out.” At that time in my life, it made sense. I believed that God, or the Universe, provides at an undesignated time, only if we pray hard enough or are patient enough. I always knew I was taken care of and would not be in the cold, but didn’t realize that I was always provided for, I just had to allow.
Several years later, I was living overseas when my ex-husband abandoned me. I had one month left in our apartment, and had no idea where I would go after that. I prayed, knowing something would come up. I stayed calm and kept faith. A couple days later, I was at the food court on the military base when I ran into the roommate of a friend of mine. He had a four bedroom house, which he rented out the 3 extra bedrooms for a cheap rate. He invited me to join him for lunch. I suddenly remembered that he had said 4 months earlier that if I ever needed anything, just to let him know. I started to tell him about my situation. “Amazing,” he said, “Tom will be moving out next month….” I had a small room for just a couple hundred bucks a month.
While, I always had enough and was never left in the cold, I couldn’t get to the point of having plenty. Over the years, and a few self-help books, I played around with concepts of abundance and manifestation. I realized early on that any fear or panic would block the flow. I developed ways to comfort myself and not to worry. I eventually learned that abundance would come naturally; all I had to do was allow.
Yesterday, I met with a client: a professional with a two-income household. She reflected on the concept of money, “Somehow, we always have enough. I believe it and feel good about it. But why can I never have plenty?”
“Because it’s easy for you to believe you have enough. Perhaps you can’t believe you can have abundance.”
I invite you to find symbols of abundance in your life. Is it your socks and shoes? Do you have plenty of beer coasters or bottle caps? Or like me, a box of multicolor paperclips, two packages of tea lights of 200 for $3.99? I have more Christmas ornaments than I can fit on my tree. I started collecting when I was 20. Some years I only could afford (or thought I could afford) one ornament for $3 or $4; other years, a box of 8, or several hand crafted beauties. Getting my box of ornaments out now, I’m amazed at how many symbols of abundance I have. See if you can feel the abundance, what it’s like to have plenty of what you wish for.
Now, this week, do your child self a favor. Pick out something that you can easily afford that will bring you joy: A single red rose, a cute candle or tea mug at a flea market, a pint of raspberries that you can sit down an eat at once. Tell yourself that you deserve it. Find ways to practice and appreciate abundance, wherever it is. Give thanks of gratitude for what you already have, and know that more is on the way.
What a great way to start out 2015 with a new way of thinking!